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'You can tell a lot about a person by what's on their playlist.'

from the movie 'Begin Again'.

Sometimes I am really curious about what kind of person am i from other people's view. Seriously, i dont need the judgement about the physical part. Cantik ke tak, tinggi or somewhat, how flawless the kulit is, or, style ke atau biasa biasa je. Na' ah. All those go with the flow. Biasalah as you are at the age of 15- 30 or perhaps it can go up to 40 something, you are beautiful physically, doh. Its the hormone doh. Lagipun, judgement tu merupakan something yang sangat general which you cant control it, it'll be effected by your cultural background, your development, experiences and bla bla bla. Therefore, me is no care with the judgement. Besides, Allah has somehow uniquely granted all of us the beauty. What matters now is the inside part. I guess i should put it as inner part. Lantaklah, im too lazy to tekan the backspace, go die with the wrong vocabulary i used. 

See. If i said this kind of thing, what would people say about me. Think of me. I ada tinggalkan positive impact atau tak on this person, that person or anybody pon lah that ive ever interact with. Seriously, 'meninggalkan impak yang positif tentang diri saya terhadap orang lain', adalah merupakan antara misi visi motto dan juga salah satu objektif hidup insan yang bernama mardhiyatun nisa binti burhanuddin. It just that sometimes she tend to forget it. 

From the things that i said, what would people think of.

From the things that i did, what would people think of.

Honestly, yes it is about what people think of. Alaaa, lagipon that is how our society works right. You nak keluar rumah you will think twice about how you look right, nanti apa pulak orang kata. Gotchaaa :P

Okay, again. That's physical.

(actually i still cant get the right word untuk meggantikan perkataan inner part tu, is it called mentally? psychologically? spiritually?.Ya ampun, this brain is not working yet i still nak type out about this thought)

Baiklah, sambung.

Selalunya lah kan, if im with naqibah. I will always have some kind of bisikan bisikan saying 'baiknya lah dia ni, how positive she is'. Not just with my naqibah. It also happen when im around with my friends or cousin or whoever it is. Dengan kawan kawan kita, agaknya Allah nak bagi sedikit 'nur' kat diri ni kan. It happened that we get to know the other sides of our friends. Bisikan tu macm ni tau 'baik pulak kau ni, never thought taht you would be this positive'. 

Ouh ouh, one point lagi. 

Even with my non-muslim friends. I will have that bisikan bisikan tu. 

Haaa, agak agak faham tak what am i talking about. Things that i am trying to deliver right now.

Do people have that kind of bisikan when they interact with me ? Do they ? Do you ?

That POSITIVE thing that people had affected me with. 

Basically, things that i learnt from people's personality. Can people learn something from my personality. Can people have that kind of bisikan about myself ? about ourselves ?

Dahlah, taktahu dah nak ending macam mana.

What matter most is the heart. Nawaitu.

'watch your thoughts, they become words.

watch your words, they become actions.

watch your actions, they become habits.

watch your habits, they become character.'

-this was given by my physics teacher, who once used to be my crush, ouh masa tu dia praktikum je. alaaa, cikgu praktikum kan, biasalah. (evil laugh) Btw, thanks cikgu, in the state of in love with you that time, i worked so hard for my physics, and got myself an A for my SPM. (evil laugh lagi sambil tepuk tepuk tangan)

Xoxo, mardhiyatun.