Rombongan Sekolah.

As i scroll down my fb timeline just now, i encounter with a quote. Inspirational quote gitu. Alah, yang korang dok follow dalam istagram tu, haa  yang tu lah. 

Eyh, i jumpa dekat page quotes ke page 9gag ye ?

Okay, tak penting yang tu. Yang penting nya the message behind this particular quote. Perhaps, some of you just think of it, as benda biasa. But, mardhiyatun nisa take this seriously. I feel bad deep inside my heart ni ha. This thing make me think a bit, hwo good am i as a friend. 

Masa zaman sekolah dulu kalau ada rombongan sekolah ke, nak pergi hangout kat library ke apa ke, my best friends/classmates/etc punya parents mesti tanya, 'siapa je yang ikut' pastu they'll answer la sipolan sipolan yang ikut included me lah. Then their parents will said 'oh, nisa ada takpe, ha pergila.' The same thing goes to my parents jugak masa sekolah dulu, kalau nak keluar sebut nama my very best three musketeers mesti punya dapat permission untuk hangout. They wont ask where am i going pon. 

Okay, itu pasal sekolah, enough. What am i trying to say is, look how trustful they are towards friends among their children. Trust, satu benda besar. Or perhaps i could say satu tanggungjawab besar. 

Eveytime ajak keluar, surely i will ajak my friends. Is that hangout necessary ? the places that we go ? setiap langkah kaki tu faedah ke tak, ha gitu. Ada pembaziran tak yang you buat kat situ ? Bazir tu isnt it parts of evil-doing ? What kind of friend am i, then? I thought the parents put their trust on you ? (except for the time that i prefer to be alone, yes, i am that type of pyscho, i can go around the mall  or anywhere it is by myself)

Apart from that, i am not saying hanging out itu adalah jenayah yang membawa kepada dosa yang besar. It was just an example towards 'trust' yang my friends' parents gave me. Did i pikul the 'trust' betul betul ? sebab lain parents, lain cara didikan. Some, jangan say bad words. Some might, jaga pergaulan. Some, kena berjimat. Some, its a no no for balik lambat. Macam macamlah. I dah kenal each one of my friends' parents. What did i do to the 'trust' ? Because, i adalah kawan mereka. I affected their life. Their behaviour and everything lah. Err, the end.

Xoxo, mardhiyatun.

This make me fall into the category of 'not a true friend'.
Tak pernah ada enough courage to give advice pon, eventough i can see the fault. 
Allahu :(