Spark.

Well hello there

i need to write out the things that came through my mind right now as fast as i can, takut lupa.

Okay, just now i was on my way to the mall to buy few things and etc. 

As usual dalam kereta, i enjoy a lot putting my soul into the song which been played in the radio. Thus, i dance. LOL. Depends on the song, kalau acoustic version ill pretend that im a pianist. Okay, at one of the junction just now, junction ? traffic light lah. Okay at the traffic just now, there were two lane. I was on the left side and there's a Honda (city/civic) car on the right side,. So, masa tu lagu yang sedang berkumandang adalah 'i'm a big, big girl in a big big world its not a big big thing if you leave me...'. So, i was pretending that im an expert pianist. My steering was basically my piano. LOL again. And then, the car beside me happily waved at me ! and i waved back to him (he was good looking though). yes, i did this often. if a person hye at me, ill hye at them back. i just assume that people like this might need some fun in their life. By responding back to them will make them happy i think. Okay, back to the traffic light. Then, i continued playing my 'piano', then the person waved at me again and he gave me his phone number !!! he put it on his window. The F is this !!!! should i take it or not ! that was the first thing came out of my mind. Then, i politely said to him no thank you and apologize to him. (I was thinking about maruah that time, kalau amik, jatuh lah maruah aku, murahnya aku, sort of things). Then the green light was on, we waved at each others and we ended it up happily but a little bit of shame and regret here and there during that time.

Oh, cerita tidak berakhir di situ.

I quickly texted my bestfriends !plural okay. which mean ramai. they said apsal kau gelabah tiba tiba nak fikir maruah! amik je dulu, lepas tu baru fikir. hahahahahahahha, evil laugh. Then, the other friend said, he took the effort and build up his courage kot nak bagi nombor tu. Writing the numbers in a short period of  time itself was already an effort. As we were waiting for the traffic light right. Memang lah kau (myself) malu, dia pon malu jugak weh ! apa laaaaaah.

Okay itu kata kata hikmah from my beloved friends. 

Then i went to a coffee shop, still thinking about him. Sobbing hahhaha. Nak sedapkan hati, i think dia saja nak hiburkan hati dariapda long drive nak ke destinasi dia. mungkin. 

I was thinking also, kalau lah i take his phone number and our journey begins.....

it happen to be that he see me and feels the sparks which say, she's the one for me.

That sparks, yang mcam dalam novel and movie tu. Which bila you met someone for the first time and quickly feels that he/she is the one for me. For exapmle, for the first time terNAMPAK dekat masjid ke sekolah ke wherever good places should be fine, then these two person meet and feel the spark and poof their love life beautifully continues... they went through up and down together and etc. I want that to happen to my love life. Seriously. I personally think that this is the most romantic thing that could ever happen in everyones life.

Tetapi, 

i dont deserve it. Such beautiful thing i dont think so i deserve it. Because there are so many bad things about myself that i kept it alone as secret. Nobody knows. Those bad things dont deserve such good man :( This thought are the one what makes me think that novel-ish kind of love life, doesnt meant for me. Terlalu indah untuk people like me. 

Uhuk, encik traffic kereta honda no plate JMU, thank you for making my day today. Rasa diriku begitu berharga pulak harni hahahaha. I hope that Allah will grant you a good wife, because youre good loooking though hahahahaha. The end.