Africa

The fact that i am still single at the age of 21 years 1 month and 4 days old makes my ibu feels teribbly, horribly, extremely worried of it. She gets more worried when i plan to go to africa/bosnia/etc to teach english, bring my eldest nephew along and stayed there. She even accepted when my pakngah said he would like to  see his son and i to be together. What theee. Okay, at first, i thought i would be so cool if i just obey ibu and have an extremely awkward so-called-relationship with my cousin. The idea of having so-called-relationship with my pakngah's son makes me feel excited as well as ibu. Im excited because it has been so long ive involved in this relationship thing. Yet, ibu was so excited because she wants me to get married. As the time passes by, i felt terribly awkward. my partner in crime for thi s so-called-relationship too felt the same way. Doesnt mean that we both played 'kahwin-kahwin' when we were around 8-12 years old we can get married and be madly in love with each other. As the time passes by, again. We both put an effort to try. To make it possible for both of us, as our parentsssssssss horibbly love the idea of us being together. We created that extremely awkward on-the-phone session as what almost all people did. We even tried to text each other 24/7 as what most couple did. We both failed. Awkward is still around. As time passes by, againnnnn. We decided to go on our own way. Without informing our parentssssss. Hopefully, they forgot that they once tried to matchmake us. Yet, my ibu noticed it. 'Aik, dah bape lama ibu tanya pasal dia, asyik jawab taktahu je'. I said that im not ready for this yet. Relax lah ibu, isha malas nak fikir. 

The fact that i said 'isha malas nak fikir', put myself caught red-handed. She knew that im not into the so-called-relationship anymore. Yet, she didnt give up so easily. She even came out with the idea for me to be in so-called-relationship with my guy bestfriend. Seriouslah ? ive known him for almost a decade. He can clearly remember my face when my saliva oozed down during the biology class in form 5. He have seen my bare face for a million times. Ive even fart in front of him for countless of times. How can possibly he be my partner for this so-called-relationship. Yes, i do agree that i am 1000% comfortable with him. However, its a no. Too much of embarrassment, this will not do. 

So now, ibu didnt bother me that much because ive kept her busy with a stuff. She got herself a new smartphone. shes totally into it, and alhamdulillah she forgot the fact that im still single. Till today, im not sure what makes her to remember that fact. She called me and asked this this that that that lalalallalala. Because of that, ive come out with this write up. The end.

Xoxo, mardhiyatun nisa.